Tough times

     Hi, Been awhile since my last post.  Not much happening though. I am still in the dull-drums with very few ups and more downs than I was anticipating.  Highlight of the week was having Joey graduate and having family in for the weekend.  Jane thinks that may have worn me out a bit.  She's right of course.  Now a few days of total rest.  
     I met with Dr Hitchcock a couple of days ago and she said I looked good and to hang in there.  OK, that's what I was expecting.  Then yesterday I was pretty down.  Very tired. My throat was reacting to food and I was having trouble wanting to eat anything.  My biggest complaints are fatigue, for sure, and my appetite.  I got pretty frustrated yesterday because I thought by this time I'd be out jogging a bit and maybe riding my bike with a bit of Yoga or swimming thrown in.  Well, that ain't happening.  At least not yet.  I was a bit pissy yesterday, but then realized I was being pretty selfish and not very grateful for all the things I do have.  So, I feel better today and I am going to step back,  rest a bit longer and then maybe next week try and be a bit more active.
     I'm not sleeping as much as I was a few weeks ago, but I am laying around just as much.  I have played music a little bit more.  The band has a gig in June and I am pretty shaky, so I feel a little pressure not to sound too bad.  I guess I could just stand there and fake it.  The rest of the guys are really good musicians.. 

   Well, I'll be on my way.  More rest and more focus on Gratefulness.  Namaste